Late night thoughts.

It's funny. The good thoughts that keep you fuelled and happy and going are often in direct conflict--or can be the cause of--the little fears that creep in in the late of night when the rest of the world is (relatively) silent.

I don't know why, but I had this weird moment about twenty minutes back that was just biting in the back of my brain like a toddler stumbling around in the dark. Not too certain, but definitely in need of illumination.

There is something that I sometimes recognize in these moments, and it is faint, and distant like a memory of a dream that one had when one was young and impressionable. Nothing tangible, but still there. A thought...just a thought about weakness...or was it failure?

It will pass, but I just had to think about it. Self doubt does that until you can shoo the self-esteem cobwebs from your mind. I tear my own down, and then let it back up.

I'm still climbing the ladder, it seems.